Tuesday, December 31, 2013

My one word for 2013 was Fearless. A year ago, I decided that I didn't want to fear anything. See, I'm a pretty fearful person. I like to think that I'm brave, but I know better than that. As I like to say, the world is a scary place when you're only 5'2".

I just don't care

But halfway through the year, I realized that being fearless is a myth--I will always have fears. The real trick is to not let fear control me. I guess that the word I should have picked for 2013 was Dauntless.

So now the question is, Did I let fear control me? Was I dauntless? There were times this year where I gave in to fear. But I think that they are far outweighed by the times that I was brave.


I did a lot this year that I'm proud of. That's not to say that I didn't make mistakes--because I did. But I learned so, so much in 2013. I have a pretty good idea of who I am and where I want to be. I enjoyed the little things, the seemingly small--but important--moments.


Most importantly, I learned to let God handle everything. I might think that I know best or know what I want, but God has my best interests in mind.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope, and a future."--Jeremiah 29:11

It's still something I struggle with, but everyday it gets easier to leave everything in God's hands. I feel so at peace knowing that my Savior is in charge of my life.


2013 was a year of learning, more than anything else. I made big decisions and accomplished some huge things (ahem, graduating...never thought it would come...). I've said goodbye to people but also met new, amazing people. It's been a roller coaster of a year, from a new baby in the family to my pappy being diagnosed with cancer. There were good times and bad times, ups and downs. It went by so quickly--each day raced by faster than the last. But even though this year has been all over the place, I will never forget 2013. It was definitely a good year, if only because I learned so much. And while I don't want to say goodbye to 2013, I just can't wait until 2014. Because I have a feeling that it will be even better. 

Far greater things ahead

Goodbye, 2013
2014, I'm so ready


Christmas Changes

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Christmas kind of snuck up on me this year. School takes up a lot of my time, then throw in planning for the Haiti trip on top of that--that is an equation for craziness. But I've never been one to shy away from insanity.

This year, Christmas was a bit different. Okay, make that a lot different. Usually, we go my maternal grandparent's for Christmas Eve, but they're in the process of moving so they came over here. On Christmas night, we go over to my paternal grandparent's with all the cousins. Those plans were changed too, because my pappy was just diagnosed with lymphoma cancer and the chemo treatment made him sick, so he's in the hospital right now.

It still has been a good Christmas, though. And I've learned that traditions change. If you know me, you know that I hate change. I always have, and I always will. But while traditions are sometimes a good thing, they can become bad if you get stubborn and set in your ways. Yeah, I know, it's a simple fact, right? I should know this by now. I guess that no matter how many times I hear something (such as, 'change isn't bad'), I never truly learn my lesson until something happens.

So that's my little Christmas post, which I guess could also be classified as a rant. Anyway, I hope you all have a great Christmas and remember the real Reason for the season. I know that I dropped off the face of the earth for a major amount of time, but I'm hoping to change that. I haven't written nearly enough lately, and I need/want to. It relaxes me so much.

Merry Christmas!!

I'll be in Haiti 1 week from tomorrow!!!! :D