Almost Summer

Thursday, May 16, 2013

It was the most beautiful day of the year (so far) today. So, I took the opportunity to enjoy the day. I grabbed a book (Catching Fire :D) and a lawn chair, then sat out in the sun. Unfortunately I was a little unwise and forgot to put sunscreen on--I never think I need sunscreen until I have a bad sunburn. Today was no different. My right should is red as a tomato and so sore. But I enjoyed the *almost* summer day. How's your *almost* summer going?

Emily xoxo

Another Run in With... Fear

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Well. May is even crazier than April: I played the flute at my friend's wedding on Saturday, and everything went really well. My brother has baseball every night. I'm trying to finish up with school because I'm graduating (aaa!!!). And I'm planning on going on a missions trip to Haiti (prayers are appreciated) later in the year. I feel like I have no free time. But I do. I just have to plan out my day. Unfortunately, that's not my favorite thing to do.

I still have time for thinking, though. And lately, I've been thinking about fear. One of my friends once said that we always think fear is some simple, innocent thing. But it's not. Fear is not trusting in God, fear is not believing in God. If I'm scared of something, then I'm not trusting that God can take care of me or the situation. 

So what am I scared about right now? Too many things. Yeah, it's cool to think that I'm going to be done with high school soon... But now I'm faced with a ton of choices about college--do I want to go? What do I want to do? All I want to do is get married, have kids, and then be a stay-at-home mom who homeschools. But I feel like I should have some sort of skill. It's all so confusing.

And then there's the missions trip. If you know me, then you know that I like my family. A lot. I don't like to go away from them for any long amount of time. I get homesick very easily. Part of me is scared to death about leaving the country. Without my parents. And flying on an airplane. That's a big step for me. But my grandfather is going, and I know some of the people going--so I'll be taken care of. 

I'm excited for the trip. I'm nervous for the trip. I'm a mess of mixed up emotions. But I've been praying about this opportunity for a long time now, and I believe that it is God's will for me to go--I'll be working in a school for children and with orphans.

 I was reading my Bible this morning and looked for verses that might help me. I came across the verse that says, "Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world."~James 1:27. God has commanded us to take care of the fatherless. I don't want to get to Heaven and stand before God and hear Him ask, "I gave you the opportunity to serve Me. Why didn't you?" and have to reply, "Because I was scared." I can't be selfish. I can't give up the opportunity that to serve and glorify Jesus.

So these are the things that run through my mind nearly every minute of the day. But I'm trying to trust God, and cast all my care on Him. Because God is in control. And He will take care of me. How can I fear when I have Jesus?

When shadows fall and the night covers all
There are things that my eyes cannot see.
I never fear, for the Saviour is near.
My LORD abides with me!

How can I fear? Jesus is near!
He ever watches over me!
Worries all cease; He gives me peace.
How can I fear with Jesus?

When I'm alone and I face the unknown
And I fear what the future  may be,
I can depend on the strength of my Friend!
He walks along with me.

How can I fear? Jesus is near!
He ever watches over me!
Worries all cease; He gives me peace.
How can I fear with Jesus?

Jesus is King! He controls everything!
He is with me each night and each day.
I trust my soul to the Saviour's control;
He drives all fear away!

How can I fear? Jesus is near!
He ever watches over me!
Worries all cease; He gives me peace.
How can I fear with Jesus?

~How Can I Fear, by Ron Hamilton


A New Chapter

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Wow. What can I say? This week has been crazy. Tonight was the last Youth Night of the school year at our church (every month, the teens take a Sunday night to run the service). It was my last one ever. It was also the last one for three of my friends. We're all graduating. It's really bittersweet. The four of us sang a song together and I felt myself start to get choked up. I don't want it to be over. Sure, I'm ready to move on the next chapter in my life. But I don't want to finish this chapter. It's sad that in order to have a new beginning, something has to end.

I don't really have words. And I only want to blog when I have words to say. I'm more for quality, not quantity. So I'll go now. And think. And pray. Pray and thank God for my wonderful friends and all the years that God has given me with them. Because I am so thankful.

This^ is so true.

~Emily xoxo