Someone I Don't Know

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

It's funny how much you can love someone without even knowing them. I don't know who my cousin is yet, but I love her. I know that she is going to be a beautiful little girl who will make me laugh. I know that I'm going to fall in love with the way she feels when I hold her in my arms. I'm going to love her laugh and her smile and the way she'll hold onto my hand. I'm going to love the way she says my name. I'll want to be with her all the time. I'll spoil her.

How do I know this? Because I already love her. I might not have any idea who she is, or will grow up to be, but I love her. I'm waiting for her. And waiting makes everything dearer--but nothing worth having ever comes easy.

It's hard to understand how I can love someone I don't know yet. I might not ever know. But that's okay. All I really know is that I love my cousin now, I'll love her tomorrow, and I'll love her forever after. My love is only going to keep growing.

So until I have my cousin here with me, I keep praying for her. I think about how I'll sing to her, dance with her, tell her stories. I'll run through the sprinkler with her, take her for walks, push her in a stroller when she gets tired. I'll wipe her tears and kiss her boo-boos, make funny faces and play peek-a-boo until she laughs. I'm going to tell her how incredibly much I love her. And it still won't be enough.

I love her, though. And I always will. I'm waiting for my little cousin Cara. With so much love.

{my aunt is currently in the process of adopting my future-cousin from Haiti}

Fear? I Don't Think So

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

This year, my goal is to not let fear keep me from doing something.

Fear is something I've struggled with before. I don't like to admit it. I like to believe that I'm fearless.

But I'm not.

Too many times, I have passed things up simply because I was scared. Scared of all sorts of things. It doesn't really matter why I was scared. But I let that fear keep me back. And that's what bothers me.

Pretty much everyone knows the quote, "You have nothing to fear but fear itself." I've always thought, Yeah, sure. Cute saying. Whatever. But no matter how over-used it sounds--it's actually something that I need to keep in the front of my mind. At all times. If I let fear control me... Then I'm in for a rough life.

Whenever I look back at the times that I let my fear keep me from something, I feel ashamed. And disappointed. Because who knows what amazing things I missed out on? I don't know, and never will. There are a million what-if's that I can't answer because of my stupid fear.

So this year, I've decided that I was going to push myself. I have already--with some support from my family and friends (which I honestly appreciate). And guess what? The things that I was scared to do, but did anyway? They turned out to be okay. I'm obviously not dead. It just goes to prove that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." Even tonight, I tried something that I was pretty much terrified to do--and I actually kind of... Liked it. But even better, I know that it made me a stronger person. And that is worth so much.

{photos via}

My original word for 2013 was going to be "authentic"--because I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not. But I think that I'm going to change my word.

My new word for 2013 is--


xoxo, Emily

because laughing is good for you

Thursday, January 17, 2013

I thought it was high time I did another funny post--because laughing extends your life.

Source: via Emily on Pinterest

Source: via Emily on Pinterest

Have a great week :)

xoxo, Emily


Monday, January 7, 2013

I love life. The more life goes on, the more I realize just how much I love it. I love the beauty of life--seeing the golden sunlight falling on the ground, the baby blue sky, feeling the fresh air enter my lungs, breathing in & out.  I love to laugh, love to be with people and share moments with them. Sometimes I wish things were different--but the more I think about it, I discover that my life is nearly perfect. Some people say that it's impossible to have a perfect life--"no one's life is perfect." Well, I think mine is. Or pretty close to it. The fact is, my life is perfect for me. And I love it.

Sometimes I worry about the future though, or get caught up in memories from the past. I forget to live in the moment. Don't get me wrong, I think that it's good to remember certain things--and it's definitely good to think about what is in the future. But I don't ever want to look back to find out that I missed out on good times, just because I worrying about something that was out of my control. I want to live in the moment and savor it--because every moment is unique gift from God. And there will never be another one exactly like it. 

I want to grasp every second and burn it into my memory--I want to remember the way my little cousins laugh, the way my brother, sister and I dance around the house singing every song we know until we drive ourselves crazy. I want to remember the way my friends and I throw each other in the pool, the way we crack up at inside jokes. When I'm old and looking back, I want to be able to say, "Yes, those were good days. And I enjoyed every.single.second of them." I don't want to let a moment pass by.

So that's what I want to do this year. I want to live in the moment and hold on to it for as long as possible. I want to enjoy every day because it's a gift. I honestly don't think that I'll regret it.

Source: via Emily on Pinterest

xoxo, Emily

p.s. I'm working on re-designing my blog so.... if things look really messed up & crazy... that's why :)


Friday, January 4, 2013

2013. A new year. I can't believe it's here. But I love it. Letting go of 2012 wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Is that a good sign??

The year actually didn't start off too well. I was got sick at exactly midnight on new year's eve--when 2013 came in. New year's day was spent on the couch feeling miserable. But I'm better now, thank goodness, and I'm ready to start the new year.

I have so many plans for this year. I want to learn to really focus on my piano, learn to play guitar, edit my finished novels... And most importantly, I want to show Christ's love in all I do and say. I want to be always be a friend, to be a better daughter and sister. I want to look back on 2013 and say, "Yep. That was a good year. I have no regrets."

I want this year to be an adventure.

Yes, a big adventure.

xoxo, Emily